Doomed!

17 months are over since i took admission in Ipcc and today i want to honestly confess to no one but me, my hand on my heart, my head dropping low with the weight of the devils that stand with temerity on my shoulders having illuminated and fostered me with the likes of carelessness and procastinations that till today i don't know what the hell is service tax, never cared actually(bleh)! 

Having somehow gave my first attempt, a wasted attempt actually, i look forward to the fall for my next attempt. 

Precisely 136 days left to give it all, to sweat it real fetid and bad and to turn my fortune back on. Whatever it is, good or bad, it can't stall me, crank me, drive me into the dark den with loser written in bold on the walls and my inner voices deprecating me for the rest of my life! I only know that a sui generis place belongs to me and i know I'll get there, very soon babe!

I've got nothing to lose, nothing to give but believe me, everything to create. I don't have many friends but that's okay because i don't want to surround myself with people who think unlike, not that they can't have different likes and dislikes, but people who think unlike! Mind it private! Aye Aye captain. Also, some are drones and i hate their useless humming! :P
Call me emotionless, heartless, devoid of sanity, humanity and what not! I've become indifferent to what people think about me. The only thing that drives me nippy is the thought of failure! Its too precious, i can't afford it having come so far, alone! (Phew!) 

I wish the upcoming couple of months behold the roughest and toughest of scenarios. Its actually the flavour of hard times that success melts slowly in my mouth like chocolate coated marshmallows as if literally giving me an orgasm, the one i always crave for!
Fingers crossed! <3

My heart got amputated.

Lies, so many lies, a bunch of lies

Lying across the alley, shouting dark cries

Uttered were they slowly from your pale lips

Crushing my lovely heart like cyanide pills

Lies don’t know, they can’t see, nor can they feel

That my soul is already tarnished silver from before.

What can the eyes see apart from gray then?

Perhaps the snow sitting loose on the fir!

Finally you showed you’re mean since ages now,

But I like to see more of it from you, ciao ciao

The mountains calling me, I have to leave

Next time though, we’ll surely meet!

Again I emerge victorious over your vicious lies

Walking past the rhododendrons, I pick up mine

Smelling the lies, the determined lies, your lies

Because at the end, it doesn’t matter to the lies!

Peace at its top! Wanna go there alone,walk alone, talk alone, sing alone, dance alone!

Bright Dawn

It’s high time now, it’s no time now, the clock is ticking.

Listen to the beat of the bugles, the battleground is calling.

Get ready you witty, the perils wait for you,

This time no shattering, only to strengthen you.

There’s the scent of tension all around

But there’s no hitch which can bound

The pen aspires for your enlightening touch

So show the world that you have so much

Never ever give up, always play your dutiful part.

Life is merely testing to see if you can win hearts.

Don’t give any heed to what your foes say.

Trust in your well-wishers who honestly pray.

Set standards, show your indomitable spirits,

Be a quintessential figure, break the myths.

Even if life bumps you down to the core

Proudly try again saying “Give me more”.

Bright Dawn